feeling miserable

I'm deeply hurt by what had happened to my beloved watch.
I don't understand why after so many years from the very 1st day that I had started to worked so hard from working part-time till full-time during my younger days and saving whatever I could to get what I've now, and yet "lao tian le" is here to take it away again.

I'm really feeling very very miserable...
I almost break out my tears but I tried to hold back,
no one can understand what much I value all my beloved watches that I've.
Everyone got smth that they treasure the most.
For some, there're extreme car lovers for the guys, whereas for the ladies, their expensive handbags are their 2nd life...
It's just work differently for me where I had a passion for watches since young and hope to collect this hobby of mine..
Why does it got be hurt till so deeply which cuts my heart so painfully ?

I really can't sleep & eat just like a motionless soul wandering in a empty shell...
my path of route once again seems to be filled with obstacles which I supposedly had already cleared.
Why has it got to be back again...........??
WHY !